Given the content of this previous blog post, the following statement might surprise you.
If you had told me just two months and a day ago all of what would happen in just the sixty days of my 2017, I’d have laughed in your face and told you that you must be smoking the good stuff. Because these last two months have been an even greater roller coaster than I could’ve imagined, even after writing my “Thank You” piece.
I’ve met people I never thought I would meet, forged the beginnings of what I hope will become a fantastic friendship with someone who’ll know who they are if they’re reading this ( 😉 ), made almost $150 by essentially playing video games on the internet, and entered a writing competition with the legitimate potential to change my life as a writer. The last eight weeks have been a ceaselessly exhilarating whirlwind of frantic passion and activity, and I can’t think of anything else I’d have willingly traded this experience for.
That said, it’s also been thoroughly exhausting.
I have Attention Deficit Disorder, and so when something does manage to light a fire in me, that fire almost instantly becomes a wildfire. All my thoughts and focus converge on this one specific thing, and I will pour all of my time and energy into pursuing whatever thing has lit this fire. And in the last eight weeks, no less than three fires like that have ignited in my life.
So hopefully you can now imagine how desperately I’m gasping for mental breath right now. 😛 I’ve been in a state of non-stop mental sprinting for the last two months, and the major problem with that has been that I’ve been trying to sprint three separate, full-length marathons all at the same time. That is a fantastically bad idea, and my actually doing it is what has led to this blog post.
Balance in a vital ingredient in the recipe of life, and it’s the one I most frequently struggle to mix in with my own. So this is me, vowing both publicly and to myself, that the triple-marathon stops today. On the first day of only the third month of 2017, I hereby declare that I am slamming down the brakes on this speeding train and finally installing some real balance into this blazing speed-freak of a machine. That means a dedicated writing to-do list that I will. not. deviate from, and it might also mean a re-working of my streaming schedule on Twitch. That’s not a bridge I particularly want to cross, but in the interest of making sure I balance out my life enough so that I can actually enjoy all of the crazy, incredible things that are happening in it, I may not have any other choice.
On the upside though, changing and balancing everything out now means that you’ll all be both seeing and reading a lot more from me in the long run, and that can only be a good thing for all of us. 🙂